An Assignment

So my friend xisting4me and I like to challenge each other to blog assignments sometimes. She usually gets my challenges done in a matter of hours, and I make her wait around for weeks. Cause that’s just the kind of procrastinator that I am. But on this particular challenge, I wasn’t simply being lazy. I was attempting to answer her challenge honestly while hanging on to some semblance of my pride. After much and careful consideration, I’ve realized that it can’t be done. So I’ll just answer honestly and let my pride have the day off.

Her challenge looks like this: How many people can you look through on your facebook friends and delete because you don’t talk to them regularly, you don’t really need them knowing stuff about your life, you added them because they asked or you haven’t talked to them in years? I did it and deleted 138 people. It was a scary thought. So why did you put them there to begin with?

At the time of this posting, I have 249 friends to my name on FB. I will say that I have had real world contact at some point in my life with all of my friends on there, but admittedly, not for quite some time with many of them. Do I absolutely need all of them? Nope. Have I spoken to half of these people in the last year? Probably not. Do I leave them there anyway? You betcha.

So that was the easy part. But now we get to the why part. Why did I add people who I haven’t spoken to in years and most likely are not going to be starting up a new relationship with anytime soon? Because they remembered me. Remembered me enough to either friend me or accept my friend request. And right here is where my pride just hung it’s “Out for lunch” sign. Because I am not proud of this, but I have lived much of my life thinking of myself as a very forgettable person. As though once I was physically out of someone’s life, that I also popped right out of their memory altogether. And so, when someone from my past pops up and recognizes and remembers me, I guess it makes me feel good, in some strange, psychologically-unhealthy way. It makes me feel like I made a difference in someone else’s life.

One particularly heart-wrenching incident of this was when a girl I had gone to 3rd grade with friended me. She had moved away in the middle of the school year and had left her address with the class in case anyone wanted to be penpals (remember those?!?). I had written her a letter at the time, but never got a response and it went long forgotten. When she friended me, she added a note telling me that I was the only one from the class who had written to her after she moved, but that something had happened to the envelope and she lost my return address, so she never got to write back to me. She told me that she had always felt bad about not being able to write back to the one person who had written to her.

I don’t know exactly what it was about this situation, but I was literally brought to tears. I had affected this person in some way so much so, that 20 years later, she was so happy to have found me just to say thank you for a letter that, to be honest, I don’t recall writing. But it was something. I had made a difference and someone remembered.

And I guess, to be fair, I have to give a part 2 as to the why. And part 2 is that on most days, I feel like I have no friends. I guess I have no everyday friends, people who you talk to all the time and know everything about you. I mean, I do have some very good friends out there, but we don’t see each other or talk all that often. We’re more like those kinds of friends who you can not see for a long time, but when you do, it’s like you just saw them yesterday. I have lots of those. I guess I’m missing some BFF’s, as cheesy as that sounds. Someone to vent to when I’m pissed at HH or something. And I guess the feeling of knowing things about other people from what they post on FB, makes me feel closer to them somehow. Like I can turn to HH and be like, “Oh, So-and-So is having a baby soon” or “So-and-So just posted a picture of their new haircut” or something.

I guess, when it all boils down, it helps me to not feel so lonely. But now that I’ve gone over the brink into the realm of pathetic, I’m going to stop and consider the challenge completed.


A Giveaway!! Just not from me…

So, my friend Mamasoo has been a blogging maniac for a couple of months, ever since she completed a month of NaBloPoMo or, National Blog Posting Month. I have yet to be so ambitious, but maybe it’ll happen. But anyway, she’s running a pretty cool giveaway right now and all you’ve got to do to enter is comment on her blog. You get extra entries if you link to her site from yours too! It’s a $100 gift certificate from “, a nonprofit company that works to eradicate poverty through our direct connections with low-income artisans and farmers.” They’ve got some pretty cool, crafty-like stuff. So go on over and check out Mamasoo! And tell her who sent ya!

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Complaining can sometimes work to your benefit

So, a little less than 3 years ago, my friend Nick had come to visit the wife and I on the day he was going to propose to his girlfriend. The kid was disheveled, to say the least. His hair was all fro-ish, he looked like crap and he was nervous as all hell. HH and I decided to take pity on him and we fixed the boy up. He was given a nice, neat haircut, a facial, a manicure and many words of encouragement. The proposals acceptance was almost a foregone conclusion since they’d been together almost five years by then, but he wanted to make sure everything was perfect. He had remembered everything, except to take care of himself! After our little makeshift “Man-spa” day, he felt much better and had calmed down some. He went off to propose and the rest is history. He and his wife just celebrated their 1 year anniversary.
So, fast forward to yesterday. Nick was coming over after work to hang out for a bit, as his wife wasn’t feeling too good. And I happened to mention during the day that my back had been killing me and that I had a knot that could kill a horse. I told him jokingly that I wanted to cash in on the “man-spa” day favor he promised us. So, lo and behold, he gets out of his car with some large bag and brings it in the house. We eat some pizza and chill out for a bit. He tells me to go put on a tank top and when I get back, he’s set up a massage chair in my living room. Oh, did I forget to mention that in the time between his proposal and now, he’s become a trained massage therapist?? Yeah.
So I’ve decided that the most wonderful thing on earth is getting a massage, in your living room, by someone who does this for a living. Bliss. HH and I got about 25 minutes each and we were both in mini-coma’s by the time he was done. It was truly awesome.
So thanks, Nick. I’m so glad we waited 3 years to cash that in!